Hello Amazing Weekend to Come!

I'm eagerly awaiting Kelly to arrive in about 3.5 hours haha She got a ride in from a really nice guy who just so happened to be on his way to Fort Collins from Az. Perfect! So, the package (Kelly) shall arrive in about a few hours. wee! Bring on an amazing break.

Saw such an amazing show last night! Epilogues (congrats on making top 3 boys!!!), Pirate Signal, and my love, Innerparty System. Of course, always mind blowing. Went with Adam and Ashley and it was so good to see everyone there! Last night was a great time:)

Decisions Decisions! 3 great shows tomorrow night. Frick! I can't choose so I may just go up to Fort Collins with Kelly and Ash to meet up with our faves from the high school days, and a couple new ones! Regardless, Friday will be amazing. Saturday night, everyone come to the Marquis! Many great bands and a fashion show for Holiday clothing. Love if you could all make it out! Come play! Finally, sunday is Ashley's grad party/sleepover. Can we say spectacular? Yes, you can. haha A wonderful weekend! Cannot wait. Finally...I have a job interview on tuesday! Hope it goes well...I really need this! Cross your fingers. If not, cross your fingers that others will see my amazing potential and call and hire me? yeahhhhh ;)

Well, I'm off to go kill time till mi hermana arrives. Have a good night everyone! And anyone in foco tomorrow night? Let's hangout and celebrate how great life is! To my friends that are all playing tomorrow...have wonderful shows Nick, Adam and Kam, and of course Jason and Chris (good luck! I know luck's on your side. You'll get it!)

Ps. Love this song. That is all.



Goodnight everyone<3

What Exactly...

Am I getting myself back into? Not sure...I need to watch out though, that's for sure.

Noah...Who are you mystery man?

So I have recently ditched Helio and their horrible phone service to join Verizon again. I got a new number (repping the 303 digits again). But since I've gotten this number, I've realized it used to be someone's old number. Apparently his name is Noah. haha I've gotten calls or texts from numerous people in his fan base. Quite the popular kid in Denver judging by how many calls I've gotten. A lot of the guys who have called have a voice that sounds like that of my age bracket and a sense of humor. I feel like they would be a crowd I'd hangout with. haha How silly huh? I've also recently discovered that whoever Noah is, has a stalker named Mimi. She is relentless at getting his number from me even though I have no idea who he is haha. Noah must be a great guy? Hmm...perhaps brought to me by fate? haha jk. But seriously...How funny would that be? Hysterical...that's how funny. Anywho, Noah, hello! Tell your friends your new number please! Maybe one day we will run into each other at the denver bars. That would be the day haha

On another note...Im DONE with finals! yes yes yes. Graduate finally. Now I've been applying like a crazy person to anything and everything. I need a job. Otherwise...I may have to give up my beloved apt for january. And I seriously, would be so sad...

So know anyone hiring? Tell them I qualify even if I don't haha 

Also, it is beyond cold in colorado lately. The other day...was -20 degrees. CMON mother nature. That is just rude. Kelly's in for a surprise when she comes home haha MUAHAHA jk. 

Isn't it a shame when you realize someone isn't how you've thought they were? Like, someone close to you? sucks...

What else....Courtney called me and is in town for a few days! such a pleasant surprise! Im so happy. I hope I can get down there to hangout. Not having a car sucks. I need a job so I can fix my baby asap. 

And finally! If you are bored and are looking for a good time (get your mind outta the gutter), then come to this! I'll be walking in it and I'd love to see some familiar faces. Come play, come dance. It'll be fun! 

Good bands. Good fun. Good times:)

Damaged

Damaged. That word just makes me laugh. Now it always reminds me of that Danity Kane song. haha Oh yikes. But really, my life right now, is in fact, damaged lol I mean, It's just a rut. I'll bounce out of it. I'm not depressed by any means. More like...annoyed? I guess that's the best way to describe it. Time for some updates I guess. It's been awhile, but I guess the major incident is the ol car accident. Never a fun time. This was my first (and hopefully last) real bad car accident. Totaled my new car:(

It all started on a somewhat sunny day in Colorado. I was driving on my way to class in Boulder, CO, however, at a slower pace due to the slushy, slick roads. I was listening to some Mr. Big's-To Be With You, when out of freaking nowhere some douchebag cut me off on icy roads. To avoid hitting him I slammed on my breaks but since we were on a highway, it was a bit too fast for my car/ice combo and my car started spinning out of control in circles across the other highway's lane. The front of my car clipped (more like plowed into) the concrete median-and I had NO recollection of this. I thought ONLY the back of my car hit when i stopped. Head injury? Maybe? haha. After the front of the car hits the median, the force of the impact sends my car into more circles and finally I see the concrete barrier heading to the right side of my car. It was literally like slow motion and I just collide again with the barrier, only to stop this time. Then, to add to the fun, I was in the left lane of the highway, stopped and backwards facing traffic as people whizzed by me cause they couldn't stop. haha scary. Two really nice people stopped to help me. One was really cute now that I think about it. If you are out there and reading this...call me. haha I kid. But not really. Then the ambulance came, blocked traffic and my poor car was towed. I made it to class on time though! haha! No idea how. 

So now what to do? I don't know...my dad is a miracle worker with cars, but he was brutally honest to me and says that this car was the worst hit he's seen and he doesn't think he can fix it. ughhhhhhh! Apparently the damage was worse than I thought. The whole frame has shifted to the right by almost a whole FOOT! Guess I hit the barrier harder than I thought haha My body's reminding me of that today. Cause it feels like a train hit me. 

Luckily, Daddy was able to get me some vicodin. It's starting to set in so I'll probably pass out soon. And my lovely Ashley brought me a massage chair. Love my family and friends! 

Well, at least I had great company last night at the show. It was SO great to see everyone. Literally like a reunion. And met a fun homeless man afterwards. I'll post pictures tomorrow. haha

Until then, I'm going to pass out. Goodnight everyone! Enjoy having a car. I realize now what a luxury it is. haha And if you know anyone who is hiring...I need a job ASAP. <3 

TO-DO List

-Job hunt for a job to tie me over till my "real world" job kicks in.

-Finish my resume. Make it stunna haha

-Christmas shop for the family!

-HMK: Psychology

-Essay Type 2

-CITI certification

-Poster

-Make Final CD with materials

-Finish final paper. Make stunna :)

-HMK: Anatomy

-Homework #8

-Study

-Study

-STUDY

Phew. Let's DO this!

OW! OMG owwwwwww

I have hit my elbow harder than I ever have. Random post? maybe so...This is because I'm postponing looking for the notecards I need for my presentation tomorrow cause I'm afraid of hitting my elbow again haha I mean...I'm typing with my right hand only because my left one is throbbing. I'm not a baby, it was just that bad haha And now it's swelling at my wrist and is splotchy red?? I'm thinking that's not normal haha Oopsy. Guess I didn't know my own note card finding strength. Ps. writing with only one had takes forever!

Had such a wonderful talk tonight with my friend Libby. Boy talks. Life talks. Helpful talks:) Love her....

I give my giant psych presentation tomorrow. I'm nervous! Public speaking is not my thang. I don't mind concerts or anything like that, but when it comes to being smart in front of peers, I get nervous lol

At least it is done and over with tomorrow though. The rest will still have to go next week. suckers! haha

Well, time to get to bed early and kick ANOTHER cold. I swear, my immune system is on a permanent vacay this year. Come back! My arm is de-numbing so I guess I must go search for notecards again. Toodles <3

Argentina?

According to one of my best friends, Miss Ashley, Argentina is where it is at. She just got back from studying abroad in Buenos Aires and had the time of her life. Every time she tells a story I feel as if I'm living vicariously through her. Every story is amazing! "That weekend we went to Chile...", "I watched the sunset over Uruguay and Paraguay at the same time while standing in Chile...", "On my trip to Mendoza...", "When I was surfing....". Ahhhhhh! I love it all and I want to do that. I'm young. I'm single. I'm done with school in a matter of weeks. I can work full time at a job and just pay the bills at my cute Denver apt. But still manage to save money aside. With this....maybe I can move to Argentina by next December or next may?? It is possible and I was talking about it seriously with Ashley. And she wants so bad to move there with me then too. As well as my Kellsbells! I mean...can you get any better than that? Living in Buenos Aires, Argentina with my Sister, and my pseudo sister. Enjoying life. Teaching English to people out there as a job. Going to Chile, or Uruguay, or Mendoza on the weekends. Little surf trips. It all sounds absolutely amazing to me. And Ash said that everywhere she went out there she thought of how excited I would be to shoot pictures there because literally everywhere is beautiful. And what a better way to solidify my spanish than by being immersed in it? :)

SIGN ME UP!

I'm seriously looking into it. Apartment hunting for ideas and areas that would be good. Luckily I have my own little personal tour guide to help me since she lived there for 5 months. I got so excited about it! The next 2 years are going to be absolutely amazing. Denver for a year with my lovely Karen, then hopefully abroad in Argentina with my sisters<3

BanSHEE? or BanCHE?

While waiting to see Twilight with my mom and sister we had a funny conversation haha Kelly and I realized that we say weird things that other people don't say. Thanks to the influence of our mom and dad. Thanks. haha For example. Hair ties are NOT called "pretties". I still call them these. Thanks mom and dad! haha Then we were talking about different catch phrases we say, and Kel brought up the fact that we always say Banshee. Do we even know what this means? Not really. haha I always grew up thinking it was like a scary ghost that is really fast, and screams? I don't know. But we always use the phrase: "Ran like a Banshee". Then, we realized that we didn't even know how to spell it. And here goes the conversation:

Kelly: "how do you spell banshee?"

Me: "I thought it was B-a-n-s-h-e-e"

Mom: "No...I think  it is B-a-n-CHE"

Kelly: "well...what IS a banshee? I always say, "she ran like a banshee" but what is a banshee?"

Mom: "A crazy Indian" -dead serious

Kelly and Me: "WHAT??? hahahahahaha No way!"

Later we google it. Turns out a banshee (spelled how I thought) is a fairy from Ireland. Like a leprechaun. haha Whatttt? Urbandictionary.com, I think you are wrong!

I'm learning to breathe

Literally and figuratively. I don't know why, but although today was one of those all around great days, I still cannot keep my mind from wandering. I had so much fun with my mom and sister today. Walked around winter wonderland and enjoyed the looks of the holidays:) Then we had dinner at the CUTEST crepes place ever. Finally, went to see Twilight. Again. haha We can't help but be GaGa over what we wish could be real lol. I mean, that is one dreamy vampire. Even with all of this, for some reason I still keep thinking about the past today. I usually don't. It's usually tucked away in the back of my mind. But a couple times a year I can't help but remember it. 

I wonder why was I, of all people who are sick, kept here when she was not supposed to be. Why did my family have to go through what they did. Why am I still thinking about it. And why does it sometimes still bother me?

That whole hospital experience did teach me so much. I learned more about life, and how strong I really could be. How strong my family could be. How strong my friends could be. Who truly meant the world to me. Who my real friends were. What I still don't get, is am I here for a reason? I mean...My parents were told to say their goodbyes. 2% is pretty much a zero chance of survival. I guess my stubbornness came in handy haha. But with this so called "miracle" as everyone called it, is there something I'm meant to do? I wish I knew what it was. I don't know...I guess this is what runs through my mind every so often. 

I don't regret what happened. Even with how horrible it was, I'm thankful for it. For how much I learned from it. And I have the best family/friends in the world. Without them, I would not be here. Only with this family could I be hooked up to a million tubes and still laugh harder than ever. (Adam's Techno Dolphin. Don't ask haha) 

I guess with this event coming up in my mind every so often, it helps remind me how fragile life is. And how quickly things can change. Overnight! Literally. It's scary. And I think about if I had been in my family's place and someone I loved were on the other end. It would be hard to be that strong. And any day I would trade places with them so I didn't have to see them hurting. Be thankful for what you have. Be grateful for your family. Never take it for granted. :) I know I won't...

Phew...Guess I need to get that out. I've never really written about it. It's different than talking about it. Not sure why. 

Moving to a better topic though: Kelly is home! I've been so happy that she is home for break. I realize how much I miss her when she is gone...

This break has been so wonderful. Thanksgiving with dad in the morning, then to the mountains for dinner with family. The cutest grandma of life spiked our punch haha Her Dutch accent sure is thicker with booze lol Then, Ladies night/movies nights in the days to follow, etc. Went to Denver with my girls for ladies night at the Rio and then out after. However, some of our guy friends were bitter they weren't invited so they decided to have a boys night out in Denver haha. Sillies. Ironically, we ran into them on the way to Maloney's and our group then merged to 15 and walked to get more drinks haha Dancing, fun, friends. Great night! 

Well, It is getting past my bedtime. Time to go cuddle Kelly haha Flashback to elementary school days. Awwww haha Goodnight!

A lot can change in 3 months....

The next few months holds a lot for me. Scary, but exciting. Moving again, but to Denver this time! Graduating with my 2 degrees. A new (amazing) apartment! Hopefully a new (amazing) job. Back to living with my lovely, new (but old) roommate! New relationships. Hopefully new (but longer) hair haha. So much to look foward to! It's kind of overwhelming.

Not seeing you for 3 months will be hard, but it is needed. I wish you all the luck (not that you need it). I feel that even in 3 months, we will both be in completely different times in our life and so much will change. I hope that after this break from each other, you will have a place for me again, just as I will welcome you back into my life with open arms. A friendship with you will be nice. That is what we began with...why not end with that, right? :)

Aside from that, Ash leaves me again! Bahhhhh haha But just for a few days for Thanksgiving. However, my Kelly belly is home tonight! I pick her up from the airport in a few hrs. I'm so excited.

As far as updates: just a lot of going out with my Ashley. Im so happy she's back from argentina. I did a photoshoot with her! Here are a couple of my faves:





What a hottie haha It was so fun doing hair, makeup and clothes for this babe.

Also, been thinking a lot lately about helping out for a charity or something. Not sure which one! There are a lot that I feel do so many amazing things. Now I gotta choose. Hopefully I can start that up in january!

Now to go wash my stanky puppy. She needs a bath bad haha Ciao! <3

Clearly not paying attention

So in an attempt to stay awake in class, im online shopping! Well, online window shopping haha I want these:





Want these. GIMME! :)

Also...My ashley is home! Love my life!

Ring Ring! Hello...This is opportunity.

I get more and more giddy about january and everything to look foward to. Still on the job hunt, however found out yesterday that my friend's mom is high up in the health sciences center of university. So yes! Hopefully then the job is in the bag. I want to so bad to work at University Hospital. Plus, Im sure the benefits aren't too shab;) Wow....I sound like an adult. Thinking about benefits haha

Everytime I drive past my soon to be apt I get so happy! I really do think 2009 is the year! I cannot wait. The end to my 2008 so far has been pretty lovely. Let's start with an update of my birthday weekend perhaps? Me oh my I've turned 24. Eep. It's so crazy. What a great weekend it was. started out with none other than Karen surprising me with MADONNA box tickets on that thursday. Not gonna lie, I got a little crazy when she sang, "Like a Prayer". haha Dancing, drinks, my babygirl. Good times.



Then to the actual birthday celebration night with my friends. Went down to the Rio in Denver for dinner and margs.



SHOTS!

More showed up than I expected and I could not have been happier! We took over that place haha. All my friends from back in high school, as well as college friends showed up and it was good to see everyone in one place:) I had a few drinks, then we all migrated to Lur for more good times, then finally to Maloney's. I seriously love my friends<3

Then to saturday night! Fashion show extravaganza! It was a blast. Got to Aveda for hair and makeup at 3. Pin-up girl hair and makeup for the first show I was in for Brady's line. It was so fun! Then had to rush and get hair and makeup done again for chase's line of Holiday clothing. I LOVED my hair for it haha Too fun! I had a mohawk thing going on. It was a tiring night, but a lot of fun. Here are some pictures:






Goooood times:)

Well, good times to come as well. Hopefully this weekend works out! I really hope so. I'd be a happy camper. Ash gets back so soon! Thank goodness. I need my other bestie home.

Also, Im going to go Mandy Moore on you for like two seconds. Bare with me but...

"I've got a crush on you...I hope you feel, the way that I do..."

Hello middle school haha

Happy Happy Happy Kari:)

Home Sweet Home

I am hopefully signing a new lease today for an apt in Denver! Yayyyyy new home:) I always get so excited. And I'll be living back with my old roommate Karen! We are always on again, off again when it comes to living with each other. We live together one year, then don't for a year, then do again. I think we just start missing each other haha

My new potential home as of January!!!




Yessss! It's so pretty. My selling point was the hot tub. Apparently I can be bought haha

Now I get to decorate it into a big girl apartment haha Ideas? I need new tables, trinkets, things of that sort. Luckily my roommate is a painter so I have awesome art covered.

And this week I get another year older. Scary haha Still not sure what I plan on doing but I am doing something out in Denver on friday. Dinner, drinks. Fun. That's all I want. I just want to see my besties!

One more thing to look foward to tonight....MICKEY AVALON with my girl Ash in fort collins. Im so excited!

Old Friends, New Friends, Good times

I have done a lot of thinking lately. Thinking about relationships, friends, school, upcoming new apts, roommate, job, blah blah. So much! It all is just looking so wonderful lately. And Im happy:) Still, I have the best friends in the world. And have recently acquired some new amazing people in my life. One was already there, but now, working on a different type of relationship. Friendship is where it's at, and I know that with these kids by my side, I'll always be okay! And for that, Im so thankful...

So update time....Ryan was in town! Freaking love him! I was on warped tour with this kid back in the day. He always looked out for me. And as always, it was so fun hanging out. Met some new people last night who were too much fun! Went to the show and met up with Nick, Ryan, Reuben, Chase, etc etc. Of course it was a wierd show...I mean....it is Jeffree Star haha But the opening bands were legit. Ultra Violet...amazing. That girl should just permanently move here. All of us had the most amazing sing-a-long of 90s songs at the bar next door. Alienated some locals, but oh well. They were just jealous of our fun. Then the best part was seeing star struck Reuben talk to Stefanie, the owner of Drive Thru Records haha He was so excited! And she is an absolute sweetheart. Thanks for the shot love! As always, photo dump of the night...






:)


All in all, last night was a goooooood time. And hopefully today I will be signing a lease for an apt in Denver! Eep! Now to finish the job hunt down there.

Also, did a shoot with a girl. Fun times! Here is one of the finals:



Birthday in 3 days, wierd haha No plans really. I think I may just celebrate friday night. Everyone come out! Ashley comes home soon! Kelly comes home soon! My buddy Will is in town soon! Graduate in about a month! Ahhh so many great things coming. I cannot wait.

Really?

HAHA Okay...I can't help but laugh at how often I go through tires on my poor car. This is my 4th or 5th set in a year! What the hell am I running over? And I don't just get normal flat tires that can be re-filled back up. I get the flat tires that actually SHRED and spit rubber fragments up into my windshield haha Never a good feeling. I just had another "tire-shredding" flat today. Lame sauce. And sadly, even though I know how to change a tire, I couldn't get the lug nuts off of it so I looked like a typical helpless girl. Argggg....but, Broadaman to the rescue. He changed it and now I have my baby spare on till friday when I get my sassy new tires:) Look at just one side of my tire:




SAD!!! I could literally put my arm through one side of the tire to the other. Never good. Well, friday it shall all be fixed up newsie!

What else is new in the life of Kari....I've been working my arse off on the most complicated experiment of life! I don't think my lab partner and I realized this when we designed it, but holy HELL! It's so confusing to do the results and analyze and all that jazz. Today was just phewwwwwwie. Tiring. No pun intended :)

But the tire is fixed, we just sent off our horrible results/data section to our TA. Now it is time for me to relax with the DQ banana split I treated myself too. YES!

Then tomorrow I have my fashion show meeting/fitting. Everyone come to the show! November 15th, Lifespot. Do it. It'll be good times fa sho.

Well, Im out. Time to relax, eat ice cream and listen to some good tunes. Till next time...Ciao! xo

Move Along

So...release of frustration real quick. woiejfoweijr owierjcoiwejroiwe&%^$^%#%$#!!!!!! Needed. First order of business, what to do about you. I can't really do drama anymore. It's not me. I don't like feeling jealous, insecure, bummed. So no more! I do believe it is time to move on. And I think it's for the best. Also, essays....could I freaking write anymore essays in a week?? haha It's my own fault. I put it off. One more to do tomorrow, then I get a break. YAY!

So, update time! This was a pretty eventful, fun weekend! I can't remember what I did thursday night...Hi-Dive maybe? yes. I think that was it. Then friday I wrote essays. I wasn't planning on going out. And finally when 9pm hit and I was still writing my essay on a friday (and Halloween night), I decided how lame I was and wanted to go out. I didn't have a costume so I hit up walmart and bought the ugliest, largest leopard print old woman's night gown I could find, came home, cut it up and made a skirt out of it and TA DA! in 20 minutes I was a cave woman and off to join the festivities at lipgloss. I'm glad I went out...It was great to see everyone! Played around in the Gigbot for a bit, did some dancing:)

Awwww yeahhhhh






So that was my friday night. Friday fun day. Then saturday I got a free massage. Freakin awesome. And very needed. Apparently my muscles needed some work cause today Im bruised! Oh deep tissue. Hurts so good though haha Then saturday night, friends were back in town! Went to their show at the Gothic. Sold out! Amazing...Afterwards we all went bowling. Drunkest bowling extravaganza ever haha. I was beyond sober but it was still epic. I brough my "A" game. Not really, I was horrible. But I won in team spirit. So that was a lot of fun hanging out with everyone. It was a blast back to college and boulder for sure. The bus was filled with my favorite boulderites<3

Then today I wrote essays, again all day. BUT was productive! Knocked out another! Just in time to meet up with Reuben at Copeland. Always a great show. And then to Petes we went for some food and off to Shag Lounge to meet up with Aaron, Rubina, Val, etc. It was good to see everyone. Pretty amazing dancing. So overall, I do believe my weekend was a success haha Now tomorrow is when I finish my essay writing extravaganza. I cannot wait!

Also, one more update! maybe two...found an apt I really like in Denver and am looking at it next week. It will be great to live with Karen again. We do work well together haha Hopefully that works out. Now I need to get a for sure job at University hospital and I'm golden. Hopefully that job will be down with the fact that I may be going on tour in April. Was just asked! I hope it works out. It's not with Chiodos per se, but this acoustic side project thing Craig is doing. It's a full US tour, so it should be a lot of fun and pretty amazing. Plus, I'd love to get to hangout with Mr. Owens more! He's a sweet friend....

Well, enough blabbing, it is my bedtime:) Goodnight! EX.OH.EX.OH.

:)

Im over these sappy, sad blogs. That's not me. I'm not a sad person. I guess everyone must go through downs to appreciate the ups. But I would just rather shorten the down ones as much as possible. Not worth being sad when so much in my life is amazing. I mean...wow. I have the BEST friends and family anyone could ask for. Don't even try to argue with me about it, because you will lose. It's the truth, hands freaking down.

So what is new in the life of Kari Geha. Not much haha. Doing this school thing. I've actually been applying myself more which I'm happy about. I spent the better half of my monday writing an essay. One down, 2 more to go this week. My own fault for putting them off! I knew that would happen in a class which had no set due dates. That results in the downfall of me haha So I am steppin it up this week to finish those. I'm also visiting the gym more. Finally. Had the membership long enough without using it haha So healthwise Im feeling so much better! Mentally doing great! Pretty soon I'll have to finish my resume and start job hunting in Denver! I cannot wait to move down there. It is just what I need:) Plus, all my besties are closer!

I never had an update/photo dump of all my AZ pictures...there are just too many. Maybe I'll get to that one day. Same with pictures from the other night. Too many to choose from. But let's just say, that night was exactly what I needed! I've never had so much fun in fort collins. That was quite the night with such amazing friends. Flashback to HHS haha And then the next day I had breakfast with my lovelies Rabananda and Nicola. A wonderful way to start a day!

So much wonderful things happening lately, that I cannot help but be happy. Talking to you was great too, and needed. :) Thank you for all that you said. Things will work out how they are supposed to. Whatever way that is...I guess we will find out when the time is right...

Well, I really should start on essay number two and stop procrastinating. My friend Libby is thinking I'm really going to town on an essay over here. But no...I am blogging haha Shhhh...don't tell.

Before I go, I feel that this old little song describes kind of how everything had been this last week. But Things are better, and I'm happy:) I am so excited for the weekend. Courtney, and Kam are back in town. Halloween. FUN! Lots to look foward to!




Tooooodles! <3

Hey, Thanks

Thank you for showing me your true colors. Thank you for showing me how much you really cared about my feelings. Thank you for hurting me more than any guy. Congratulations. It makes it that much easier to say goodbye to you.

I guess I am to partially blame. I knew deep down you would hurt me. And...I allowed it. I just didn't think you would go to such lengths. I realize now how much my feelings meant to you, and that hurts me the most. Even as a "friend", you had no consideration. None. And I was all but too supportive of you and did not receive it in return.

Not only am I going through some rough patches, but you just added to it. Maybe I needed that to temporarily forget about the other? Thanks for that I guess haha. All in all, I have been let down by what I hoped would be a significant person in my life. Whether it be relationship-wise or just a friendship. It's gone and I don't think I can trust myself with you anymore without being hurt. I do not deserve it. No one does.

So...fresh start for me? Yeah. I do know though, that I have the most Amazing and supportive friends. Im truly blessed! In the end, I have surrounded myself with people that honestly deserve to be in my life. Just as I am lucky to be allowed in theirs. Thank you guys for everything! You mean so much to me...

Well, cheers to a new start, with my wonderful family/friends:) I cannot wait for everything the future holds. I know everything works out for a reason. 

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”-Howard Thurman


Ps. This makes me laugh so hard. Do not know why haha


<3

Careful Now

You'll hurt yourself. Careful now. You'll hurt someone else.

Relationships

Be careful with your heart. That is something that I haven't really done lately. I usually am the girl with all of the walls up. It's not that I don't want to be in a relationship, it's just that I think deep down I am afraid of getting hurt. But aren't we all? I think that is what relationships are about. Whether it is a romantic one or just a friendship. All come with the risk of getting hurt, but you don't know until you try.

Opening up to these can potentially lead to something great. Something that teaches you to care. Teaches you to hope. Challenges you. Pushes you to be a better person. Teaches you to love. So many more things can come out of it that may change your life. Even with the risk of getting hurt, I think the possibilities of all those positive outcomes are completely worth it. Even if it is something that ends up hurting you, you can learn from it. Become a better person from it.

I just am not sure where to draw the line I guess. The line between friendship and something more. A relationship that can hurt one day and make me completely happy the next. One where there is complete and brutal honesty. No matter how much it may hurt, I appreciate it so much. One that challenges me to push myself. I'm so grateful for what I've had, but just do not know where to go from here. I guess taking it one day at a time is best, but I always need to remember to still look out for my heart.

All I know...is that in the last 24 hrs, I realized how much I care about you. And I had such a happy 24 hours with you. We'll see what the future holds. But at the very least, I'm glad I have you in my life. Thank you.

Oh life

I'm so excited.



And I just can't hide it:)

Seriously, bring on 2009. It's gonna be great! Also, see you tomorrow Tempe. I cannot wait to hug my Kellybelly <3
Apparently this is her picture for how excited she is haha




And I'm equally as excited!

Just Perfectly Content

I've recently decided that I'm going to be addicted to this. I kept a diary when I was younger and never again wrote in journals after the age of 12. But now...I'm definitely into it. I mean, I can add pictures and everything! Now THAT'S a diary. E-diary ha ha

So the last 2 days have just been so wonderful. I'm really loving life right now. Not that I ever don't, but lately it has been pretty great. Seeing good friends lately and having fun has been so lovely! Last night my friends played a show at the Ogden and it was amazing to see them. It had been to long. It's weird to think I've known them for a few years now? Maybe 4? Lost track. Awhile. And they have always been great as far as checking in randomly to see how life is treating me even if I only get to see them but once a year. Love it. I love those friendships where if you cannot see a person for an extended amount of time, things are still exactly the same when you arrive at a crossroads again. Makes me happy. I mean, Craig is and always will be my scar twin! :) Anywho, ch-ch-ch-check out their new stuff. [www.myspace.com/chiodos]

Today was a lot of fun too. Got to hangout with my brother which doesn't happen nearly enough. He's the best. We took pictures of him and his car and had so much fun just being outdoors and in each others company. Then I went to dinner at Watercourse with my gal pals and said bye to Courtney before she leaves for tour. Love that lady!

BROADAMAN! <3





Then I got quality time with my puppy:) She's not really a puppy anymore but she's still as cute as one.




Well, enough with the updates...I'm off to go pack for another couple fun-filled days in Tempe with my sister and dad! I cannot wait. Apparently it's still 90 degrees out there?! ha ha Eek. Regardless, I love seeing my AZ family! Friday cannot come soon enough:)

“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”-Anonymous

Trying to stay awake in class

:)

So excited about tonight! I get to see my loves, courtney, derrick, craig and danny! Should be a really fun night. Cannot wait. Step one: to get through this class. lol

Ps. Just glanced around the classroom and about 75% of the class is either doing the "trying to stay awake head bob", texting on their phone, OR actually sleeping on their desk. Rough.

Anyways, it is my favorite season now!!! Can't get prettier in boulder than it is now. Now...I need to get into some haunted houses and corn mazes. Who is down?





Anyone has a free night should come hangout at the Ogden tonight!

Also, I'll be in AZ friday-saturday to see Kelly! Im so excited to see her! Best girl in my life haha We may even drive with Papa Geha to the Grand Canyon. :)

Have a lovely day everyone....

Sigh

Can't sleep...But I am listening to the Copeland (old AND new) and am pretty content.

Ever wonder why sometimes you can sleep and other times you can't? I always do. Story of my life. Don't quite understand it haha I guess until I do fall asleep I'll just keep youtubing Sigur Ros videos.

This one especially makes me so happy:




Can't wait to hangout with my loves tomorrow night! Ahhh Courtney is back in town and so are my boys!

Turning over a new leaf

This is a point in my life that I look foward to the most, when it does come about. The realization that I need and want to change a lot in my life for the better. No matter how minuscule. I'm so excited for what my future holds, and what I can potentially accomplish. I just need to realize that it needs to be taken one step at a time. I can be a bit impatient haha.

I'm trying to even organize my thoughts as to all I want to do so I guess the best way to begin is with a list? :)

1. Work OUT. I got a gym membership. step two...to actually get myself to go. Working out makes me feel so much better and energized and healthy! Nothing is better than that. I am so much more productive when I feel that way so in a roundabout way, I may get more homework/studying done;)

2. Eating healthier. I already eat pretty healthy for the most part, but I could do better. My stomach has been fairly angry at me lately so I need to cut back on some things.

3. Sleeping Habits. These need to be fixed. I should start a fairly regular sleep schedule cause sometimes mine is pretty messed up. When I eat well, work out and sleep well, my immune system pays me back immensely which my friends and family know is pretty important for me for a few heavy reasons lol ugh...

4. More study time. I feel like this semester I have slacked off...a lot, as far as studying goes. I'm out of my element! Im used to going to the same coffee shops for years at CU, but not living in Boulder has proved this to be harder than I thought. So instead of studying, I slack off. So, I started today by studying A LOT and plan on keeping it up. It's a good feeling to be confident in a class....

5. Apartment/Job hunt. I neeeeeed to find a place to live in either december or janurary. I'm thinking Denver! Unless people have ideas otherwise. I'm open to new things. I really want to try other places, but Denver just may be a stepping stone for the rest.

6. Travel. I want to go to EUROPE! If money permits. To do this, money must be saved. Let the saving games begin!

7. Build my Resume. This should go above 5 haha I really need to add/fix my resume for any serious jobs to take me.

8. Make sure my friends and family know everyday how much they truly mean to me. If I don't say it, know how much I appreciate all of you! You are the best things in my life xo

9. I know there is more, I just cannot think of it at this time. More to add!

So there it is. My list. :) Here we go!! I'm so excited....

"Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going."-Jim Rohn


One more thing: GO TO THIS PLEASE! It's for a great cause and will be a lot of fun!



xoxoxoxo

OH and one more thing...Copeland's new cd is out tomorrow and from what I've heard, it's pretty great. Go check it out!