Believe: Flashback to the Past

FINALLY cleaned out my car today to get it ready for me to drive it again. Fresh paint, Fresh interior. Fresh start. haha I found so much in the trunk. Pack rat I am. I found ALL of my cds. SO funny...Looking through them makes me laugh. In one of the cases I even found a cd of old pictures and videos! I need to clean more often. Such a relief seeings how my computer crashed and I lost all of my music. There is a good chunk in those cases. I found one old CD that brings back some memories. I found Unwritten Law's "Music in High Places". I can't decide if listening to this comforts me, makes me happy, or brings back unwelcome feelings. When I was in the hospital and started slowly getting better, that cd was what I listened to almost 24/7. I couldn't get enough of it. And it was the ONLY album that would help me to sleep. And even though it was so comforting to me in the hospital, it of course reminds me of the stay. And in that time I had setbacks too. I remembered listening to, "Before I Go" and "Rescue Me" on repeat when I'd get bad news in the ICU to take my mind off of what i was just told. Now I can't decide if it still does that or if it upsets me? Listening to it makes me really happy, but at the same time, kind of like I want to cry haha As silly as that sounds. I don't know why! Especially cause I never cry. Clearly it reminds me too much of that 4 month stay that I wasn't too fond of. But at the same time, makes me feel good cause that was a time when I started to increasingly get better. Weird how music can have such an emotional impact; even after all these years.

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So updaters:

Had an awesome weekend! Lots of Boulder lovin. Long overdue. Thursday and Friday I worked in boulder and afterwards hungout and got the best chinese food "family" dinner deal with Sean and James lol. Food for DAYS! Then friday I worked and went out in Boulder immediately after with Sean and James and my two Ash's: Lash and Mash. Nicknames to avoid confusion. We had some fun at the downer. Sean had the best cardigan ever. Lots of drinks. Fun. Ran into some old boulderite friends! Good to see Melanie and Marina, Taylor and Travis and Nat. Boulder never fails haha

After the Downer we went to Foundry and danced for the rest of the night. Had a sleepover with my loves:)

Then Saturday night I hungout with my Courtney! She's leaving for Europe tomorrow. I'm gonna miss the crap outta her. She'll be gone about a month. I'm so excited for her though. We had a light night but it was so nice. We had a photosesh and walked around Denver. Then we both got pretty chilly and went to Paris and had some hot cocoa, almond milk and chocolate cake. SO legit haha Finally tonight we all went to eat at Watercourse tonight for dinner so I could say bye to Miss Swan! Safe Travels Lovah!